The Fear of Being

Growing up I always felt different from others, my interests and passions were not similar to my peers. I loved history, a trait I probably inherited from my grandfather. Not only did I love history, but I also loved reenacting historical events and pretending I was apart of great moments of times past. I lived to talk about anything-history to anybody who would listen.

Later in high school, my parents enabled me to do Civil War reenacting. I loved that time, but I eventually moved on. Later in high school, I also started making videos and putting them on the Internet. I was passionate about getting young people on fire for Jesus. Then, I just stopped.

A lot of things happened in my life during my high school years, but ultimately I was suffering from a lack of identity. I was insecure as to who I was. I would try and dress, talk, and act like my peers hungry for any acceptance I could find.

I feel confident in saying that I know that I am not alone in the lacking. The feeling of inadequacy that consumes you. I went from being a very outgoing person to person trying to blend in, not wanting to rock the boat. I was suffering rejection from those close to me so to avoid more hurt I tried to fit in to prevent any more of it.

I gave up my passions because I feared what others thought and I was unwilling to pay the price that putting yourself out for the world to judge costs.

I let the world steal my passion for change.

I was at a Spirit lead bible study the other night, and I felt the Lord speak to me. He brought to my attention that what I was passionate about was not a thing that I should be ashamed of, because He put that passion inside me. That passion is the work He wants to do through me.

We are all God’s original masterpieces, and we take our identities and sell ourselves short of the person God created us to be.

Fear has always been a part of being alive. The fear of what other people think consumes our thoughts. It dictates how we act, dress, and talk to others. We want to be a winner and receive the accolades from our peers, but even if we receive it, we will still feel empty inside. No amount of praise from man can replace what a God who knew you from the before the womb has to say about you.

What am I saying?

Embrace what you love! That is could very well be the thing that God placed you on earth to change the world through. What does that look like? If you love skateboarding, dive head first in perfecting your craft. If you love telling stories, don’t stop it. If you love to read, dig deeper. Perfect your Passion. Grow in that facet and let the Holy Spirit use that as a way to connect with others. I truly believe when we embrace the identity that God has given us we can be empowered to change the world. We don’t have to live in fear of man anymore.

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Hope and Change: A Call to this Generation

About two years ago I was hit hard by life. My dad decided it was time to move on. I was living in Houston at the time and I was left wondering what to do. The questions of whether it was my fault haunt me to this day. It’s a pain that stays with you and turns into anger when people expect you to do the impossible while they are requiring the ordinary of themselves. It was at this time of my life I was faced with two options. I could sit in my house and pout about how the world seemed out to get me or go and change it. It was at this time I saw the poor and helpless for the first time. I saw the murder of the unborn as genocide for the first time. I saw a church shooting itself in the foot with its apathy lack of passion. I asked myself is there hope, and if there was, could I even hope to make a difference? God gave me answers to my questions. He told me I’ve given you breathe, use it to turn the world upside down. The world will hate you and your own friends will criticize you, but you will be about my business. It was that day I decided I would do something. I never looked back. I have never let the status quo be since that day.

40 Days for Life was something that I got involved in after a friend of mine at breakfast challenged a group of us to go out to an abortion clinic. Most of us had never been. It was the first time I was ever emerged into a battle where lives are being snuffed out before your very eyes. It is a sobering experience. I attempted to get more involved but my parents’ divorce was not final so hearings kept requiring me to go to Houston.

It was not too long after that I discovered the judge in the family court back in Houston decided that homeschooling was not a legitimate form of education and that my dad should put my siblings in public school. I could just accept the violation of rights or I could fight it. I chose to fight. I began a petition and was able to get over a couple thousand emails sent to the Judge urging her to reconsider her decision. Tim Lambert of Texas Home School Coalition wrote the judge and there was a change.org petition was shared across the world. A little under 2,500 signatures came in before I closed the petition. It became a success when the judge recognized homeschooling as a legitimate education option after she received thousands of emails and a couple dozen calls.

I then became swamped with emails of people who were encouraged by my efforts and would still fight to be able to home school. I even got an email where one woman said she was inspired to home school her kids because of what I did. All it took was one high school student to stand up and not accept the status quo. People underestimate youth. They have low expectations of them. If just one person goes against the flow it will at the least leave an impact that affects future generations.

One of the next things I did was follow Jason Vaughn around the Capitol for about two weeks. We were working to help push the Texas pro-life bill through, HB2. After watching the first bill die in the first special session there was a great push when Governor Perry called a second special session. Tons of protesters showed up at the Capitol for the next couple of weeks.

Media was crucial for the pro-life group out at the Capitol. There were a handful of us equipped with cameras to record and catch the opposition acting unethically. If nobody was out there using social media tools and getting the footage, people would not know what was going on in the Capitol. Jason Vaughn the guy I was helping out, got Hail Satan trending worldwide on Twitter when several videos of people shouting “hail satan” were produced during the session. Everything that happened only happened because a handful worked overtime to make it happen. If those folks were not there the goings on in the Texas Capitol could be a lot different. The bill may have died because of all the negative media attention and lack of respect for the politically incorrect viewpoint.

 

 

So what am I saying? We need young people to rise up and speak up for their generation. We need 20-somethings with their free time standing for truth. Because if not them, then who will? We live in an exciting time where before us where we have the responsibility to stop an agenda that intends to turn America into a godless socialist wasteland. You don’t have to have connections, great leadership potential, and communication skills. God doesn’t need your talents; He just wants you to be willing to offer yourself to Him as a vessel to use. My story is a testimony of how God chose to use a kid from a broken home who was told his whole life that he was worthless and ineffective. That he would never succeed. That he should be content with his quality of life. It’s a story of how he said no and resolved to do something to fight for justice. That story can be your story if you are just willing to look at the world around you with a different pair of eyes. If we had an army of young people that were willing to fight for the unborn, the widow, and the orphan then if that army was only a 100 strong, I believe that a difference can be made. The only thing that is stopping us is you not getting involved. This generation is in a crucial time in history if we do not defend the Judeo-Christian principles that this nation was founded on we head towards a fall much like Rome’s. If we rise up there is still hope that we can spark a revival to stop the downward spiral into darkness. It can only happen if you are willing to serve. It’s time for you to lead the escape, to light the path, and make known the present danger. Everybody talks about hope and change, let’s be the generation that actually makes these things a reality.